November42010
changes
BFF officially accepted a new position, and next friday is his last day sharing an office with me. i am all kinds of emotional about this.
i am sad. knowing we will likely never work together again is kind of hard to imagine. i will miss his presence, just over my shoulder. i will miss our lunch dates and how ridiculously difficult it is for us to choose a place after all this time. i will miss the banter. we argue like brother & sister. to the death. stubborn vs. stubborn. he likes to think he is right and knows all; i like to disagree until we end up in fits of laughter. it works for us. just when our friendship has really solidified and established its place in our lives, he is rocking the boat. (punk!)
but i am glad! i am proud of him. he is one of the smartest people i know, and he constantly wants to learn more, be better, try new things. it’s inspiring. he has motivated me more than he realizes, i’m sure. it’s time for him to move onto bigger and better things. he needs a new environment, new people, new challenges. i’m positive he will be wonderful.
i kind of feel like being a toddler and stomping my feet with fists curled by my side. ”but i don’t want a new work bff. i like the one i have!”
i am scared. i entered the real world right after college with his help. having a friend at work made a huge difference, especially during such a major transition period in my life. now, he’s moving on. and so am i. i’m taking baby steps to find a new position and determine my next big move. it’s time. while he is helping me, answering my questions, and offering encouragement, whatever comes next will be for me alone.
i feel like a little bird that’s getting kicked out of the nest and taught to fly. to be honest? it’s about damn time. i’m turning 26 next weekend, and i really ought to be hitting my grown-up stride one day soon.
