October272010
i feel frozen - paralyzed by a fear of change. the problem here is that changes need to be made. and it’s up to me and me alone to make them happen. i know what i need to do, but i can’t bring myself to do it. i’m putting it all off. it’s similar to how i felt with the cpa exam. it’s almost like, what if i do pass? how will my life change? i’m so scared of the change, that i sabotage myself.
i’ve been at the same job for 3 1/2 years, and it’s time to move on. for a multitude of reasons. i’ve learned a LOT here, and i am grateful for my experience. i’m even more grateful that i’ve had the chance to develop a close friendship with my work bff. he is one of my very best friends now, and i am dreading the day we officially separate. he is already interviewing for new jobs, and i’m working on my resume.
the thing is - i can do better. there is so much more for me to learn. i need more room to grow and more people to meet and more opportunities to face my fears.
